Some of the things
that have made me feel the worst, have been things that ended up bringing out
the best in me. The things I did not want to do, but did anyways, enabled me to do the things
I always wanted to do. I know personally that I am thankful for the leadership
in my life that made an effort to call me out when I was heading in the wrong
direction. Some of the people that have made me the most angry, were the people
I am most thankful for today. I had the worst within me, but when coming to the
external, it displayed my best. Life is funny like that. I could go on and on
about the irony in this, but I think the picture has been clearly portrayed at
this point.
Ralph Waldo
Emerson once said, "Treat a man as he is, and he will remain as he is.
Treat a man as he could be, and he will become what he should be.” It is a good
thing other leaders along my way realized this. The uncomfortable things I did
not want to do, did not align with my current self. They were not things I
would naturally do. They were not things I could just wing, or were naturally
good at. At the time, I did not realize I was preparing my future self for the
things I would do for the rest of my life.
Once I did those
things, and got better, it become less uncomfortable. Eventually, all of the
feelings of doubt and dread I had before had seemed to turn to confidence. I
knew I could because I had become those things, and they had become a part of
me. It became almost like a reflex.
I remember a time
when someone could make a negative comment about me or what I was doing, and it
would bother me all day long. I would get angry. There would be someone trying
to guide me down the right path, telling me, just to forget about it. Easier
said than done in my opinion. I struggled with that for a while. It seemed much
easier at the time to just get offended. It was not easier, it was just my
natural reflex. After learning to let go a few times, it was like chains were
broken from me. I did not feel imprisoned by those feelings of anger I felt
before. One of the most awesome feelings I have ever felt in my life.
I remember the
first time I was going to speak in front of a crowd. I wanted to do it for
years, but now that the time had come, I was scared to death. I wanted to run
and hide. It was crazy to me how I could have desired to do something for so
long, and those feelings turn to fear when it became reality. Despite my fear,
I was urged to follow through, and it was the best advice I ever took. I was
even horrible that night, but inside I felt like I accomplished one of the most
important goals of my life: I conquered fear.
No matter what
point we are at in our lives, we all experience fear. We all have points of
discomfort where we don't want to change, or don't want to do something. You
conquer these emotions not by refusing to feel them, but by changing your
natural reaction to them. Remember, emotions are natural parts of who we are.
It is up to us to choose our natural reactions to the emotions we feel.
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